sukosagi

Hello DA...it's been so freaking long and so much has happened I cant even begin....I guess I could go back words? 

. I am moving to Austin Texas this Friday...MY GOD IT HURTS SO AND I HAVE TO MANY MIXED FEELINGS!!!! DX I had a going away party and it hurts so much I couldn't handle it... my friends where there and I chocked i didn't tell them everything I went through if they want to know I guess they can read this journal...My god my head hurts i love them and i don't make friends that easily anymore...I still get so damn lonely even in a basement full of screaming kids i get so lost in my head and i end up using a wire to...punish myself...I get so anxious now i developed this thing called Trichotillomania...if you want to look it up go ahead but its kinda gross..please don't judge me...I mean i'm excited to be able to have my own room for once I just hope my parents don't try to force me out everyday...cause the only place i have comfort these days are at my laptop where I feel closest to my friends...

.I haven't been in the best of moods you could say....or best of mindsets...I croaked at school about self harm it was horrible I admitted that I did try to end it and sometimes it feels I lost all respect from people none of the students where around it was 5 o'clock but sometimes it feels that students know and talk behind my back it such a big paranoia I tried to hide it from my mother for so long because my sister had been diagnosed with autism and my brother is only 2 and to top it off my dad has been a big jerk to her and us lately its so odd how a man can both make me feel anger and pitty....

. I have other siblings...yep I have 2 older sisters I never knew existed...still I don't think i have a chance to meet them though...one is 18 the other is 16 their both very pretty girls but their background isn't compatible for me to be with... If you want to know more about this soap opera of a story you can message me but i wont put it right here.

Thats all I'll put for now maybe ill do a part two if yall are interested but it felt good to vent right now....thanks for listening to my drama 

<3Sukosagi 

Hello DA...it's been so freaking long and so much has happened I cant even begin....I guess I could go back words? 

. I am moving to Austin Texas this Friday...MY GOD IT HURTS SO AND I HAVE TO MANY MIXED FEELINGS!!!! DX I had a going away party and it hurts so much I couldn't handle it... my friends where there and I chocked i didn't tell them everything I went through if they want to know I guess they can read this journal...My god my head hurts i love them and i don't make friends that easily anymore...I still get so damn lonely even in a basement full of screaming kids i get so lost in my head and i end up using a wire to...punish myself...I get so anxious now i developed this thing called Trichotillomania...if you want to look it up go ahead but its kinda gross..please don't judge me...I mean i'm excited to be able to have my own room for once I just hope my parents don't try to force me out everyday...cause the only place i have comfort these days are at my laptop where I feel closest to my friends...

.I haven't been in the best of moods you could say....or best of mindsets...I croaked at school about self harm it was horrible I admitted that I did try to end it and sometimes it feels I lost all respect from people none of the students where around it was 5 o'clock but sometimes it feels that students know and talk behind my back it such a big paranoia I tried to hide it from my mother for so long because my sister had been diagnosed with autism and my brother is only 2 and to top it off my dad has been a big jerk to her and us lately its so odd how a man can both make me feel anger and pitty....

. I have other siblings...yep I have 2 older sisters I never knew existed...still I don't think i have a chance to meet them though...one is 18 the other is 16 their both very pretty girls but their background isn't compatible for me to be with... If you want to know more about this soap opera of a story you can message me but i wont put it right here.

Thats all I'll put for now maybe ill do a part two if yall are interested but it felt good to vent right now....thanks for listening to my drama 

<3Sukosagi 

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It hurts to know, that people who smile the most are in the end the one who is in the most pain...

hello there people of Deviantart I am in side the second semester of high school...and...I still hate it my favorite class is English but I hate everything else. I am real bored I sort of joined an after school program called MIKVA (Which has been changed to SOCIAL JUSTICE LEAGUE). in conversation I fade in and out and just keep drifting, Also I have been included in a newbie band since I have learned the basics of guitar. and I would say my singing has improved since I play and lead singer. I still alas miss the stage and if anyone out there knows any good plays to audition for let me know because I want to go back to having fun in the stage again I am rather dull of my life style right now . We all know the feeling of wanting some sort of adventure for me that's challenging myself on stage so if anyone knows any production going on doing auditions or any programs in Chicago message me or leave a comment! Any who I am entering a naruto OC contest and i'm about to enter my picture once I ink it and it should be ready! SO ya Also I need to post my sally skellington photos I didn't win 1st place in the Halloween contest but okay... well have fun and stuff PEACE!

 

Eating: Almond Cookie

Listening: A new way to bleed by evanescence

Drinking: Apple Juice

Watching: Nostalgia Critic

Reading: Nomansland (seriously there are no spaces)

Well hello there,

Yes! I know I haven't been online for like a century and a half. Well to recap some schturff that's happned to my face...

I graduated 8th grade (Finnaly)
I survived summer in the country with my aunt (No wifi or nerd anywhere to be seen )
I survived my first day of being back home and not eating fresh food anymore :iconsickfaceplz:
Lost 20 pounds
Manage to gain most of it back with the stress of home...
Got a broken heart...
Learned how to use my head voice self taught
Watched Legend of Korra book 2 !
Learned the cruel secrets of Highschool spell
Got cast by the highschool spell then broke it
Found 3 kids who are immune to the spelll of highschool
(here's on of them
Have girls in the locker room talk about me behind my back
Become "That girl" again
Currently Working on my Halloween Costume!! Guess who I am going to be?
Hint!

Yep I am making a Sally costume!! I am super excited I finnaly was able to stitch it togthere but little did I remeber I don't have a sewing machine so I have to do it by hand! So wish me luck I guess in cosplay geek world and School world..